nohartandsole

I miss your blogs. You made me feel like it was alright being bitter because it was better than being numb . Since you're not as bitter anymore, you quit us all on here. I loved knowing what was going on in your head cause that was what was going on in my head.  "I want it so bad I'd shoot the sunshine into my veins"

Is it lame that I feel abandoned ? I kinda used to hope you read my posts just because I knew you'd know  that we're not alone in this starless city. My head is screaming for another to fill the gap you filled. Silence has become awkward.  I feel unreadable. Like no one else gets me, some might read this and think they understand, but sadly they never will. They won't ever get it.

Sometimes I wish I saved all of your posts so I'd have something to look back on. So lonely without you. I wish you didn't find your happiness...cause I'm alone. I can't express myself the way I use too. I feel so tamed and locked up.

Fall through planks, sell me to the man, don't really care anymore, turned off all the lights and now I'm waiting for our minds and smiles to click like crickets.  Some day some day we'll make it.