I'm fighting and holding on as best as i can

I hate to say this, but we're falling a part. I don't want us too. Cause you're the best dude I know. I don't care if me and you are never going to be more than friends. But to lose your friendship, will kill me. I'm trying so hard to  hold on to what we have. Maybe I'm just not cutting it  anymore. We don't text as long as we used to. And even though I don't text you first all the time, doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you. I just don't want you to feel like I need you all the time. Frankly, I do. I need you so much. When we don't talk I feel like there's  something missing. And even now when we talk...I can tell what breathed life into our friendship is dead.  I want to save us from  falling a part; I want us to never fall apart. But maybe it's already taken its course. Maybe we're not meant to be anything...how lonely my heart will be without you .