Thanks Jacquelyne

Me: What should i do if the guy i like has a girlfriend and he’s one of my best guy friends ?

Jacquelyne: if hes in a healthy and happy relationship you should honestly not pursue it. if you’re a true friend you’ll support his decision and genuinely be happy for him if he is. if he isn’t happy in the relationship be a friend and and talk to him about the issue. i think being his support is the best thing you can do regardless of the situation. being a good friend now may advance things for you two later.

how in the world do i always get in the situation where the guy i like has a girlfriend ?

He hasn't been with her long, so far he's happy. which i'm glad, cause when he was depressed (not over a girl) it wasn't helping my mental state. I'm glad he's happy. Cause in all  honestly that's what I want for him. But why I can't for once be with the person that I like?

Even my friend Eddie, a guy who I used to like in High School, asked me "how come you can't find a good guy?"  Eddie has a girlfriend , so no he's not crushing me. But I pretty much as myself that all the time.

I'm a good person. I'm always there for someone when they need me. I try my best to make sure other people are happy before my own happiness. I'm rarely ever mean and yet I'm always just the friend to someone. Ugh, this sucks so much.

I want to be more -.-