And I thought things were getting brighter here

I haven't written in here for a while.
I guess I thought I could deal with everything on my own.
But I've come to realize that I can't.

Peroxide princesses and shark teeth

I feel like you've left my head.
Maybe its the best .
But since you havent been here to guide me, everything has been down hill.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I've come to realize that the people who matter are far away
and the people who don't are too close for comfort.
I want to look inside my heart and brain and find the missing pieces.
I want to feel hole.
I'm tired of being broken.
It is true, I'm the girl with a broken smile.
I feel the tears wanting to run.

Do I truly depend on others to make me happy?
I don't know how to make me happy.

I have become what you are.
Lonely.
Lost.
Scared.
Trapped.
Broken.


Take me back to the careless days where happiness was just a phone call away.